21. Let Time Stand Still

Pause.
Stop.
Wait.
This can't be my truth, can it?

.......... "Take it back!" I sob into the phone. "Take it back!"

Wandering lost and aimless
In the home I grew up in.
Mind like a seive
Unable to latch onto much of anything.

.......... "Take it back! You didn't mean it! She's fine!"

In this time pass
Time stands still in perpetuity
Denial of time from doing what it does best -
ticking forward.

.......... "She was just sick! The doctors are going to fix her! TAKE IT BACK!" I screamed.

Life spins around me
But I can't seem to catch onto it
Lost in myself.
I pause, not knowing what I started
I start, not remembering why.

........... "Please, take it back. This can't be real. Pleasepleaseplease take it back...."

My truth has changed.
The ulitmate universal paradigm shift.
An explosion so big,
My world's axis tilted,
Just a bit.

........... "Take it back...." I cry into the phone, even after I hear her hang up.

Minutes pass. Hours pass. Days pass.
Months pass. MONTHS.
Time stands still.

Pause.
Stop.
Wait.
Let it be still for only a moment
Before my world exploded.

........... I sob into dial tone, screaming at an empty phone.